…I can see all obstacles in my way.
It’s leaving me. The cloud of PND that has been following me for so long is leaving.
It’s a very strange thing to feel happy. This feels like true happiness.
Not the kind of happiness that makes you see the world with rose tinted glasses, but the kind if happiness that makes you see the dull colours just as clearly as the bright ones. I can see the bad in the world as well as the good and I can cope with it. This, to me, is a much more sustainable form of happiness. This is not a bubble that could be burst at any minute, this is a house. A brick house with solid foundations.
In fact, things have been far from easy recently. Family illness and work pressures have made things tricky, but the exciting thing is, that despite all of this, my head is above water. Waves that would previously have drowned me are simply washing over my back. I can cope. I am coping.
I can indeed see all obstacles in my way, and by seeing them I can face them. My head was covered in a rain cloud that made me unable to see the path ahead, unable to see what was in my way and therefore I stayed still. I was scared to move towards happiness as I feared tripping on route and being stuck in deeper mud that I was before. Well, now the rain has cleared and I can see the path clearly ahead of me. I can even see the destination. I am not there yet, but I do now have my map. I can make it. There will be ups and downs along the way, but I can get there.