My thoughts on the quote “It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.”

I saw that quote on Facebook.

I have since learnt that it is a poem by David Jones, (read about it here and the way in which these wise words have spread)

And it hit me- that’s my problem. Every single thing I feel is felt to the maximum.

And it really is true. A blessing and a curse.

When I am truly happy then I am full. Overflowing and face aching. When asked to think of a happy occasion, I think of my wedding day. I think of how my face hurt from smiling, I remember my husbands vows and feeling as if there was noone else in the world as he looked into my eyes. I remember feeling love. Love more than I had ever experienced. And feeling safe, knowing that whatever life throws at me, with my husband by my side I will survive.

Every second of that day was felt deeply. And what a blessing that is.
In contrast, when I feel sad, I feel empty, sadness consumes me and I am unable to focus on anything other than the sadness I feel. The negativity overtakes me. It forbids me from seeing the light, and stops me from hearing advice and kind words.

When I find myself in a black hole, it is deep. A true curse.

These are the emotions I am blessed to feel deeply.
Love
Pride

And the emotions that I am cursed to feel to the full.
Guilt
Worry
Paranoia
Jealously
Insignificance

I am saddened by the length of the lists.

EDIT JUNE 2014.
This post was huge amounts of traffic. I assume that this is people looking for information about the quote and not about me. I find this slightly embarrassing as this is not one of my strongest posts! If this applies to you and you have read this far, can I please urge you to have a read of some of my better posts?! In my opinion the 2 best are
To my daughter before you were created.
Mythbusting, Why I told the Facebook world about my Post Natal Depression.

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4 thoughts on “My thoughts on the quote “It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.”

  1. Thiso quote describes my emotional state through every hour of every day. My mood changes drastically in response to the tiniest of stimuli on such a scale as to be mentally exhausting.
    Only recently I was diagnosed with a combination of Bipolar Disorder type 2 and Borderline Personality Disorder, and many of the symptoms of these conditions links straight back to these feelings, most particularly the ones you have listed.
    Now I realise that there’s not something ‘wrong’ with me, I just get to experience things a little more intensely than others, and I will bear it- blessing and curse.

  2. This post caught my attention and then it led me to continue reading and feeling this peaceful but yet intense feeling of “I’m not the only one”

    I cry when I’m happy with butter flies and shortness of breath and I try to not focus on the sad or negitive but some what some how I have an intense extreme feelings problem.

    If I pass a couple in love sharing a moment I can’t help but slow down and smile and watch, if I pass an old couple in the park same thing. If I pass someone playing catch with their pet dog I get happy like its me playing I even scare myself sometimes cause I feel like I can feel other people around me and hear their thoughts.

    I try to keep mostly around positive people because if I come close to sad person upset person even if it’s at social gathering and they are hiding behind a smile I can sense and feel them. Sometimes I get panic attacks if someone is heart broken I really Dnt know what to do or how to deal with this.
    I just keep away a lot and stay close to my family and close family friends only.
    I’m writing this and hope that someone else can direct me or advise me on how do I get some kind of training to control my feelings especially others.

    Thank you btw for your beautiful story and I hope you can share more if your lovely stories darling.
    BR
    Iman

  3. You have no idea how happy I am for finding another person who is just like me. And yes, it’s both a blessing and a curse.

  4. You’re so very wrong. I was looking for who wrote the quote and ended up reading your blog as I could relate to it on every level. Lovely 🙂

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