I saw that quote on Facebook.
I have since learnt that it is a poem by David Jones, (read about it here and the way in which these wise words have spread)
And it hit me- that’s my problem. Every single thing I feel is felt to the maximum.
And it really is true. A blessing and a curse.
When I am truly happy then I am full. Overflowing and face aching. When asked to think of a happy occasion, I think of my wedding day. I think of how my face hurt from smiling, I remember my husbands vows and feeling as if there was noone else in the world as he looked into my eyes. I remember feeling love. Love more than I had ever experienced. And feeling safe, knowing that whatever life throws at me, with my husband by my side I will survive.
Every second of that day was felt deeply. And what a blessing that is.
In contrast, when I feel sad, I feel empty, sadness consumes me and I am unable to focus on anything other than the sadness I feel. The negativity overtakes me. It forbids me from seeing the light, and stops me from hearing advice and kind words.
When I find myself in a black hole, it is deep. A true curse.
These are the emotions I am blessed to feel deeply.
And the emotions that I am cursed to feel to the full.
I am saddened by the length of the lists.
EDIT JUNE 2014.
This post was huge amounts of traffic. I assume that this is people looking for information about the quote and not about me. I find this slightly embarrassing as this is not one of my strongest posts! If this applies to you and you have read this far, can I please urge you to have a read of some of my better posts?! In my opinion the 2 best are
To my daughter before you were created.
Mythbusting, Why I told the Facebook world about my Post Natal Depression.